we're all growing up so fast!

What is a birthday? Most believe that it's simply an occasion to mark the passing of another year of life. I believe it's the celebration of oneself, a joyful event to commemorate the day of your arrival to the world! The glory of birthdays has almost been lost, though I've officially made a point (just now, actually) to restore it's original wonder. I'm not exactly sure how I will achieve this, but I'm going to try. Christmas has almost been overwhelmed with material appeal as well, witnessing the needy greedy filthy hands of children blindly grabbing for unnecessary playthings downright repulsed me. All I need is to be surrounded by love and inhale a hearty meal, then Christmas is complete.

You know when you're sitting on one position for a really long time, like, I'm talking hours here, and you feel cramped and smushed together whenever you bat an eyelash? Every molecule in your body is compressed to the point of an implosion, and you can barely stand it a second longer. You know you need to stretch, so you go for it. That feeling, the extension of each limb, that ultimate relief, rushes through you, inside and out. You've been uncaged, released into the wild, freed from captivity. The pressure has been lifted from each and every inch of you. You have been recovered, maybe even built from scratch. There is no feeling comparable to that of a stretch, and I'm almost positive that I'm due for one. If you know me, you know I'm talking figuratively here, and it might come as a surprise to you. I'm home for the holidays this year, home being the place where my house is not. I've been so warmly embraced that even I can hardly believe that I feel this way, but there's been a ton on my mind since the 747 landed back on my homeland a week ago that I can't seem to shake.

On a more positive note, I've had a day full of guffaws and fantastic company. No, scratch that, more than fantastic. I got to spend multiple hours at several of my favourite places with my two favourite people on this planet. All-time, forever favourites. It's so relieving to have no doubts about how something is going to unfurl. Experiencing a love like this must mean I'm in the right place with my life. Today definitely lifted my spirits a great deal, but they could use some more elevation. Well, they always could, who am I kidding? At least I'm still at peace with myself, and very content. My mind needs an off switch.