what do I need?

I want to live in a city where the lights never diminish. Where I can construct and live in a masterpiece in which every room has a vibrant color and theme. Where I can have 14 coffee tables in places that don't need coffee tables. Where I can come home to a surround sound stereo serenading me in my liveliest or most dejected of moods. Where I can store all of my families memories as well as my own in a dusty old attic perched beneath the roof. Where I can take lavish baths in a clawed tub, admist towers of towels and fogged mirrors. Where I can hold tea parties in the sitting room with my closest chums. I want to direct harmonies and melodies and accompany lyrics in a whirlwind musical prodigy. I want to piece together delicate stories on canvass with a glass of water, a series of paintbrushes and a set of watercolors. I want to make millions of memories and laugh, for all it's worth. I want to be accountable for my life, every minute of it. I never want to cheat, lie, steal or deceive ever again. I want truth and integrity. I want to be independantly wealthy. I want to learn how to hold on to what I have. I want to learn how to be completely content with what I have. I want to learn how not to be so greedy and want ever so much. I want to be respected and admired. I want to be an influential member of society. I want a life.

Oh, and Taryn, I'd like Catcher In The Rye back as soon as possible. It's very important that I read it again.