lost.

All I can ask myself is 'What did I do?'

Sitting here, with tears streaming down my face, I ask myself: What was the single thing that I did to deserve this? How is it MY fault that you hate me now? And just because I expressed my thoughts to one person, why do you all of a sudden get 'bad vibes' from me? Why can't I listen to you talk anymore? Why don't we feel close anymore, and why can't we find any common ground? Why is it that EVERY conversation is forced, why do I hug you and feel empty, why is it that every word passed now means nothing? WHAT DID I DO TO CHANGE WHAT WE HAD?

The most important question just has to be, what do we do now?


To tell you the truth, I can't wait to leave. Now that I've screwed myself and all of my relationships with everybody over, twice over, I can't hold on one more second. I have to get away, since there's nothing I can do to fix it. It's unrepairable. None of our past matters anymore, and I no longer have a future with any of you, so I guess that's it.

This is it.


Fin.