Samson went back to bed, he told me that my hair was red.

I wonder why most of the greatest reflective moments I have are in the shower. Take today's, for example. It's midnight now, but I peeled myself away from the couch to jump in before I fell asleep at around 11:30. My timing could use a little improvement, but that's another story. I was going through the motions, y'know, HAVING A SHOWER, and I took a moment to stick my head under the stream of warm water and think. I definitely haven't done that in a while. Breathing deeply, I stretched my arms upwards and decided to focus forward from that point on. Lately I haven't been able to focus at all, so just imagine what weight this decision has on my future. It's been a pain presently peeking at my past, and even more of a prickly plotline prodding around the present, so taking a risky step into tomorrow is a welcomed yet scary thought. I can do it though. All of this tactful pondering about what's already happened is getting me nowhere fast.
I need a thinking chair. I'm not going for the Blue's Clues look, the large sink-into type of thing. Nah, I think I'm thinking more figuratively here. I can't sit and reflect in my living room, I know I would end up turning on my television and getting lost in the motion picture and sound. My room wouldn't work either, this technology typhoon piece-of-junk hasn't failed to suck me in yet. I'd rather not situate myself in my kitchen either, as I know I'd just think about what to eat next. My bathroom doesn't sit well, obviously, and my spare room, ironically, has no room at all. Where then, can I go, that's warm and suits my thinking needs? I would go plop down on my favorite bench just up the road but I know I would freeze myself silly and there would be absolutely no pondering going on at all. Errg. This is extremely inconvienient.
But for now, I need to focus on not failing grade ten. That, my friends, is a very forward thought. ...kind of. I need to make a list! My room definitely needs a good tidy, for starters, and my studying could use some ...doing. Sprucing up. YEAH, that's it. Maybe if I clean my living space then I'll clear my mind too! Lets hope. And maaaybe if I go over my notes then I'll be able to set my mind on finishing my homework! ...AHAHAHA. I'm a natural comedian, seriously.
Now I'm just started to make no sense at all.
Nevermind.

love always, xo.